I wish I could be this normal human being that can easily stay motivated and on task and happy idk. I also want to be likeable. The older I get, the more I fear being unlike-able. Because I keep thinking everyone younger than me will be so different, will know and understand the world and generation better than I do. And I just want to keep up. I just want to be on top of things, but perhaps it’s unrealistic of me. Perhaps I’m putting too much pressure. I just, want to be better. And it should be easy, but maybe it’s just my mind set convincing myself that I’m not better or enough. How do I just fix my mindset? How do I get myself back on the right path? How do I be okay again? Or How do I let myself be not okay but still get the help I need or the grace i deserve? Idk what’s happening these days, life is uncertain and i fear I won’t make my dreams come true, and tht it’s my fault when things don’t go a certain way, I should release control but I get nervous ill loose it all