I'm so exhausted all the time because of my BPD. I can't make normal friendships, i have to make them my entire life, and the second their tone changes or they're not as talkative my brain convinces me that they hate me or i made them mad so i need to cut ties with them and never speak to them again, then i'll spiral into me being the problem and how i'm a stupid asshole that ruins everything because i can't control my emotions. People only think my condition is "on unstable relationships and anger issues" no, its not. I feel every emotion at 10x the amount normal people feel. all. the. time. i can;t be happy, i have to be manic. i can't be sad, i have to suicidal. i can't be mad, i have to ruin their life and mine so they hurt just as much as me. i'm. so. exhausted. and there's no cure, no treatment, no therapy that can help. "eat sour candy" sure i'll remember that when i'm punching myself so hard that i bruise my knuckles just to control my feelings, because that'll help.