i just want to heal, i don’t want to be bitter. why is it that the people who traumatized me and bullied me for years and had their one goal in life to make me miserable get to be happy? why are they loved and surrounded by friends? how is that fair? how is it just? people always talk about karma but i never see it. i’m stuck with horrible nightmares and panic attacks because of how i was treated and they are living their best life, surrounded by support and friends and care, being praised and uplifted for the fake personality they have, why doesn’t anyone see how evil they are? why can’t they get what they deserve? why do only i have to suffer? i just want to be free from the pain. it isn’t fair what i have to go through and they get to be happy and live a dream life. why do i even care so much? it’s 2am and im sitting here typing this out instead of sleeping bcuz a nightmare woke me up and i feel so pathetic and sad. i just want to be done and over with it, i dont want to feel this