people say to love yourself before you love others, but i genuinely dont think i can do that after getting a taste of romantic love. i love my boyfriend, but we'll be breaking up in 2 months cuz he has to permanently return to his hometown, i was devastated when he told me so, and i told him about how he gave me the will to live while crying my eyes out, but promise to still do my best to live after he leaves. but now im not so sure about that promise, ive never loved someone so much before, not even my friends and family, and it genuinely gave me hope, and now that love and hope is leaving me right before my eyes, and since i have no life goals, i dont know what else to live for. i know, even im ashamed of myself... im aware its unhealthy and that i should never live for a man, but as someone who lives in the dark before meeting my bf, he was the one who brought light into my life, and now that light is slipping away, can you blame me for wanting to grab onto that lifeline?