i started self harming 4 days ago (ive pinched my wrists so hard that its left scars before but i just started cutting) yesterday i was in my group for my group project and they somehow brought up sh and talked abt how they'll never understand it and how its stupid and i didnt know what to say. i feel like this may be a sign from the universe or god for me to stop cutting before it gets too far but i genuinely dont know. i decided to just stop for yesterday and today and wait until i go back to school to see if i get any signs again. if i dont then ill probably just continue. i genuinely feel like im not in such a bad mental state to start cutting like yes ive been feeling rlly tired with all my family members against me and my friends drifting away but i feel like i dont feel enough to be cutting so i also feel guilty but idk cutting just makes me feel good and idk why. if u had told me a week ago that i actually got the courage to hold a blade to my skin i would've not believed it.