I tried to kill myself once and even after I tried how much of I coward I felt knowing I couldn’t go through with my attempt I still had the feeling of wanting to end my life for months after my attempt but I just couldn’t bring myself to going through with it. Later in the year I started gaining some happiness back into my life but that was short lived as my confidence plummeted and so did my mental state it left me back to where I started in a dark place in my room crying every night wishing I could disappear but nothing changed I kept waking up living a miserable life where I felt left unwanted and there was little I could do and i understood one thing and that was that I just have to live with the pain because I knew that I wasn’t man enough to end my life and that taught me how to hide my emotions from others to protect myself. So I want people to hear me when I say that when someone ends their life they aren’t weak. They are stronger than any of you will ever be.