Im so tired of my elderly dog or rather, i have caretaker fatigue ugh. 15.5 years golden, has to monitored constantly and because of that i cant even apply to jobs, no one in the house even cares, just me, and no on symphatises. I live in chile and it has been raining like hell since last month, and the dog REFUSES to go potty in places other than in the backyard that's fk flooded or on the streets! The poor dog gets drenched because she holds and and she's so damn stubborn, i never lash out but i scream using a pillow from time to time. Also it takes just one soft push (ie just to avoid her to step on a puddle) to pout like a kid and stop cooperating. Im so fucking tired, she has to take pills every 8hrs, she needs someone to take her for potty, she cant stand by herself anymore but the two vets i saw dont want her to put her down because she still has will to eat and drink water, but she has changed so much it's like seeing a zombie of a former friend and i have to bite my lips.