My life is good I have wonderful and supportive parents, friends basically people around me and I'm greatful for it I really am, but there's always suicidal thoughts telling me I don't deserve any of it and that I should just kill myself and let someone else have my life.I don't know why I feel this way to myself but I just am I love myself I know that I do, and I just don't know why I have these suicidal thoughts I already had tried to kill myself twice each time I didn't go through it and I blame myself for not doing it, right now I shouldn't be alive I shouldn't deserve to have a happy life, financially, and having amazing people surround me, and I just want to die there's always days that it's worse because I had a bad day but every night I think to myself if I deserve to wake up tomorrow or even that I deserved this life. I'll probably attempt again in the future, but killing myself also makes me feel guilty for leaving everyone but I want to do it, I just don't know why.