i feel like im gonna be sick oh my fucking god oh my god im so scared. my mother found my vape n cigs. i dont wanna go back to that house. im gonna grt fucking screamed at and im so scared i hate being there enough already i hate both houses i hate my dad and my mom. i fucking.cant wait until i can move out because this is so anxiety inducing she said she was so mad she couldnt even talk to me rn and now the anxiety is jsut building up because i dont kkow what to fo usually when shit like thid happens i end up relapsing but uve been doing so well and i dont wanna fucking ruijn it all over something like this but idk ive already been bedrotting n my depression has gotten so bad im so exhausted this is really js a sign that whatever god is out there fucking hates me as much as i hate nyself i know its bad to smoke n vape but theyve done it around me my entire life idfk what they expected. they already know that ive hurt myself before. fuck, ive DRANK before. fuck fuck. im so scared.