I always get this overwhelming guilt whenever I go out to hangout. Like, the moment I spend money it gets even worse, the constant feeling of regret and disappointment drowns me. I feel like I can’t give back to my parents properly, it just makes me feel like a burden in this household. I can’t earn anything, yet I spend and spend. Eventually I cope with these emotions by eating, sure, it’s pathetic. I’ve gained pounds and pounds from this. I’ve even been in the average weight range, and it just makes me feel worse. I can’t stop either, I want and wish for this to stop but I can’t find a healthier way to change. I still feel like a burden in the end, eating away the money in the household like some termites that needs to be cleared.
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