I can't work, I can't have fun I just feel lost. I don't even feel capable to tell why I feel this way. I miss the one I love, I won't let them go I lost them 6 years ago now. I still think about them every day I won't let you go. I can't. They are the reason my heart still beats I couldn't get out of bet without thinking about them but it hurts. I had a breakdown in april after I graduated this year. I should be happy, but all I feel is bereavement. I spend my days grieving. I don't know, I used to have a looser grasp on reality I used to be able to feel and see them kind of like a controlled hallucination but it's gone and its so lonely now. I built a plush effigy of them I cannot sleep without it. I just feel fucking insane. How do people go on with they lives after death? Am I weaker than them cause I can't let go? I just love them, I loved the person and I love the idea living inside of me right now like a religion. I don't know, I just know I love them and I miss them.