my love, my sweet girl I swear you’re just the perfect girl i’ve met. But I can’t do it, I can’t be with another girl. I love you so much but it doesn’t feel like you like me back either, I try my hardest to be close with you. To enjoy the silence but you don’t like it when it’s quiet, do you? I try my best to entertain you but I just can’t. You let your friends make racist remarks to me without even thinking about correcting them? That hurt. I was told that dating my same gender was wrong but I still try for you and sometimes it feels like you don’t care. You tell me to chase after you but you never stop running and I don’t know what to do anymore. You don’t even try to joke back with me. You always say the same thing over and over and make it awkward and i’m so sick of it, i’m tired. I miss Tyon, I miss Zona, I miss Jerry. I miss everyone who understood me just a little bit, I wish I could go back in time. But there would be no one waiting for me anyways.