Rant #12225

I've just been moody? Idk how to describe it, in a way it feels like a toxic behavior from me. And I've tried so hard to change but it never seems to actually work. I've always been jealous of people who are good at socializing, like my best friend who's so effortlessly likable. I'd always end up mute or awkward whenever I'm in situations where I have to socialize so instead of going out and meeting new people, I would js end up socializing on the internet instead.