I feel so invisible, everything in my life is going so wrong, it feels like my parents hate me, I have a lot of friends but at the same time I feel like I don't have any friends, i've been crying myself to sleep almost every night, no one checks up on me, and recently my dad has cheated on my mom as well, he started a new family and has a new son, he spent almost all our money on his new family and left us broke, my mom spoils my sister, I don't blame my sister I love her but I sleep on a couch, and she has a king sized bed and just got her room redone, I don't have anyone to talk to, my mom downplays all my achievements, my dad doesn't even talk to me, so many people I care about have passed away recently, I don't know if there's something wrong with me or if there's something wrong with them, I don't hate my mom but I don't love her, I have so many feelings bottled up including my sexuality, I was taught not to tell anyone. I've had terrible thoughts recently I don't want to act on.