I don’t want to die but I want to die I’m scared of losing people but I don’t know if there scared of losing me I try my best to keep a upbeat attitude I try my best not to cry wanted to breakdown on my birthday I just want to break and let myself fall into depression I’ve felt alone for so long family is always there but they don’t understand me and I don’t want them too at all I feel like a burden in my own family cause I do so little and when I try to help I give up cause it’s just too much and I don’t want to be lazy I want to help I tried to go on a walk and I almost ended up dying of heatstroke and tbh I start to think I would’ve been better if I just died and nobody will care I want to die and when I get in a relationship it makes me no better I fall out of love cause I can’t love someone who can’t love me unconditionally like I do I feel like I’m going insane on a daily basis and I can’t being cause my friends tell everyone everything about me I just want to die already man