I have a friend who I genuinely really care for and love a ton. They texted me hours ago telling me they were on the verge of vomiting and wanted to cry. I intentionally pushed it off as I was too insecure over me asking them if they were okay as I did that too often when I was in a relationship with them years ago. They asked me why I didn't ask if they were okay and my heart sank. And I made the stupid mistake of lying about getting into an argument and my day being exhausting instead of owning up to my insecurities. At that point, I cared more about preserving the friendship than being a friend and actually owning up to a dumb mistake. I fucked up big time and they want to talk to me tomorrow. I will be honest with them though, I know I have integrity. And I will accept however they respond too. However, I wish this doesn't ruin anything. I really, really, really wanna remain friends with them. And I know they do too. We love still each other, we told each other that.