I think I have a personality disorder. I don't know what it is, though. I never feel like the same person between days. I'm not the same at day as I am at night. Thank god I don't have any kids or a wife that relies on me because I'm so goddamn inconsistent. I swear, I can't remember half of the things I do, All I can remember is that I acted wildly differently than how I would now. Someone told me I might have childhood trauma. I don't even fucking remember my childhood. Like I just spawned into this world at 20 years old. I can't remember it. I can't remember it. I don't think I want to, either.