this whole night hurts so bad and i cant talk to anyone. I would talk to my bf but he is too drunk and skipped over the message of me asking for help on accident most likely cuz he is drunk and i would talk to my friend but he is the main reason I'm crying rn. i have been tryna do it myself all night but it got too draining. i need to talk and let it out to someone, literally anyone, but i cant. My bf and friend are unavailable, my brother has his own things, i CANNOT talk to my mom cuz all she finna do is just offer me an anxiety pill then move on with her day, and ion got anybody else. I wanna cut so bad but I'm tryna stay strong. its so hard tho. I just wanna forget the mental pain and make myself bleed, preferably to death. ANYTHING. I wouldn't actually do anything, they are just passive thoughts but it still hurts so much. whatever tho, my feelings don't matter. All I'm good for is making sure everyone else is okay... there will never be anything else I'm ACTUALLY good at..