For some reason when I get really angry (wich has been happening a lot lately) since I can’t exactly release that anger on anything and everything, I always end up hitting myself as hard as I can until I leave bruises. And it’s weirdly satisfying like it really helps with my anger. The thing is tho lately I’ve been having theses thoughts of like actually doing self harm (like..c*tting myself gulp). And part of me knows I shouldn’t cuz yk it’s a bad thing to do but at the same time i kinda wanna do it.. idk why. It’s not like my life is particularly bad I mean from what I’ve read on here I realize my problems are quite small actually but idk there’s just a voice in the back of my mind telling me to do it. And tbh if I wasn’t so scared to try I’d probably have done it a long time ago.. idk what to do. When I see someone with sh scars I get weirdly envious and I know that’s a horrible thing since people go through more horrible things than me but.. I cant rlly help it