I've spent this whole summer trying to become a better version of myself. Working out, martial arts, skincare, a new haircut, everything. But it feels like nothing changed. I barely look different, I'm not where I want to be physically, and it makes me wonder if improvement is even real or if it's just something you see online. On top of that, summer feels like it disappeared. Every day blends together, I barely made any memories, and I feel like I wasted it. Then there's a girl I've liked for years. My friends made everything awkward, and now I keep replaying everything that happened, wondering what she actually thinks of me. I overthink everything, and lately I've just been sad most of the time. It feels like I'm putting in so much effort for so little in return. I just wish things felt like they were actually moving forward.