ive been so ashamed of myself and me venting to others that i dont even know if im victimizing myself. sure, my mom works a job she doesnt want, had to raise two kids on her own, and has a whole family relying on her for income, but then, why give birth to me? i didn't want this, i wasn't even meant to be born. everyday its just the same thing in summer break: Bio class, ACT and SAT review, disappointment im not good enough, and always expecting more from me. more time spend on studying, more time spend reviewing answers i got wrong, more time making me feel ashamed for not being good enough and for her to not live the life she could have, more time nagging about my attitude and how im so ungrateful when i dont even know what i exactly did for her to think im treating her terribly, more time her complaining about every single bit of ourselves if its not me not being motivated enough in her eyes or my attitude or how she doesn't need to worry about me since im the youngest child. kms.