i have a bad alcohol problem im 17 i started at 13 i also started smoking at 12 i started coding at 14 i feel like im not making progress with anything and i wanna end things in a year im so tired and idk what to do but im feeling better sometimes im motivated and im like yeah i wanna do shit but my mom was an ass to me again today even after I helped her with chores and i just wanna cry and im so done and everythings piling up and i have no friends at all no irl no online and my grandma and my dad died and i just wanna kms and my pet died and the only thing thats kinda helping is tkiy but dude these past 5 yrs have been so bad i cannot cope at all its getting worse and time is running out and ik im smart and capable but mental health is ruining me and i just want to sleep forever and not have to worry about things shits terrible and my mom is kinda LGB phobic and my dad slightly accepted me but I think hes gone now hes gone and I have nobody at all nobody fuck this fuck everything