My mother treats me like a dog. I've never longed for anything in my life as much as I long for a good relationship with my mother, but that's literally impossible. I started to hate her at some point, and I'm not ashamed to admit it to myself. Yes, I hate her. Yesterday, she threatened to disfigure my face again. (She threatened to kill me for years and beat me so badly it left marks on my body, and she threatened to disfigure my face several times before.) Anyway, she was furious yesterday for no reason at all, and I was so happy, but when I got home, I was subjected to the worst possible insults for no reason whatsoever. Her sole purpose was to ruin my happiness. My relatives had recently returned after being away for a year, and because I was enjoying myself hanging out with them, she swore she wouldn't allow it again as punishment. I hate her so much. On top of that, she constantly tells my father that I'm bothering or hurting her and twists the stories to her advantage.