I hate that my friends think telling me im their friend will fix everything I'm 'part of their group' but I'm not even included in hangout planning. I'm so fucking annoyed, because just why? WHY? I'm trying my best, and you still don't see me as 'part of the group'???? Just what!?? I've been trying my best but you keep not including me and I can't even quit the group cause somehow, you'll turn it on me and I'll feel bad! Curse my empathy. I hate that I know my values but I can't follow them when I'm with you because you genuinely give me mixed signals but mostly good which is what makes it hard I'm trying so hard and due to how our school is I'm scared to be alone after I leave and yet It hurts when you fucking don't treat me like a friend I shouldn't even be saying that. Its more of a 'You're our friend' but not 'best friend' as what they SUPPOSEDLY want me to be, but they just can't And its fucking annoying. DON'T DRAG ME ON A LEASH?? AND NOW ITS TOO LATE TO LEAVE. FUCK YOU.