i love her so much, why's she so older than me? why's this happening with me? i literally never imagined being in a situation like this. she's so dear for me, i cherish her so much, i love her so much, but she's 7 fucking years older and i'm a minor. i wish i knew it before, but i didn't, is not my fault, i didn't want it to be like this. she's my friend. she's so respectful with me and i feel so bad for lying to her. i don't deserve her friendship. i don't deserve her. i wanted this age gap to fucking disappear so i could be honest to her and say that she's literally the best fucking thing that ever happened for me in the internet. my heart races so much when she talks to me, when she's so kind and gentle, so damn respectful because she knows damn well my age, and she would never, ever do something weird with me. i am the problem. i am fucking sick. i am attention starved dumbass who's so lonely and just want to be loved, and this is why anyone who's kind to me becomes the whole world