i feel like i either have nothing inside of me or I have a level of intensity that no one can deal with...? there's a dull person there and there's also a person that likes likes likes too much. and wants to be liked back. i have so many memories of me expressing this inner like and people responding strangely to it. i guess i don't know how to manage it. i don't like much, but when i do, i like too much, sort of thing? it's hard to temper it. I've had so many FPs where i become so invested in my like for them... i think about them all the time, i want to curl up on their lap like a cat and have them ignore me while i sit with them and they maybe acknowledge me sometimes. i want them 2 play with me and indulge me sometimes. and maybe we can talk. or something. i shouldn't even be thinking about people rn bruh i have a job