No matter how much I dont want other people to kill themselves. I think about it alot, and I know that any thoughts past 10pm with sad music are to be ignored but I still think of it as a nice option. Like it seems interesting, I dont mind dying and the thought of just disappearing is just like idk cool I guess? Is really hard to explain, but its like i could just die. I dont really want to kill myself since there's alot of cool stuff I wana get into in my life, but its just there. It's so tempting even though I dontr have any reason to do it, nothing in my life sucks tbh I just have severe depression, and I mask it pretty well. I also am really good at caring for others emotions and I have a very high emotional intelligence for my age thag other people just dont share. And it sounds like im bragging or something which im worried about since I just wanna be honest without coming off snobby. Ugh I hate this stuff 😕