I’m tired of myself. I realized the other day that i haven’t been trying for the past 4 years. And it’s all my fault for thinking that because I always manage to make myself feel so bad, in situations that i should be enjoying things. I say this because I compare myself to my best friend. Can you imagine that? My closest friend. I feel like I Am behind. I see her friends that she made this past year, and I’ve only made 1. And she’s gotten close to this other friend, opening up even more than me. Talk about weird things together before me. (This is how i found out that my bff and I like weird things and talk a bit about it now) but it doesn’t really matter. They talk more openly together more than my best friend and I do. My best friend becomes very chatty infront of the other friend. I’ve always wondered. Because with my best friend, it’s quieter, Awkward tgthr. Sometimes it makes me sad. But, I also get very overwhelmed by the world and ppl. Is this bad? Pls don’t say she’s not my bff