I have some financial struggles in my life. I'm the oldest of the three siblings that I have. My parents are struggling I can see that they are trying really hard to provide for us. As for me, it's like a every financial route I try to take just goes in vail. I feel like the universe has turned it's back on me even God himself. At this point idk what to do, I think of what would happen if I just die but I want to keep going. It's not only about financial struggles that I'm facing, life just kicking me in the face, I can't even recognize genuine people because my heart is so guarded that I think they just want to hurt me. If only I would find a way to survive because I'm drowning in in my sorrows. I even lost weight due to high stress.Like what do I do at this point?