For the past few years, my mental and physical health have not even been close to being at its top. I found out my mom started doing self harm a few years ago, which was devastating to see one night because of the circumstances of what was going on and her own reaction. I'm just glad it was late at night and so she was too tired to give it much of a reaction. Why was/am I glad? Because I'm too scared to talk about it to her. Then, after all of that, she started flirting with close friends of hers, which felt extremely awkward being close to, and made her friends feel just as uncomfortable, if not more. Why was she doing this? Because my dad broke up with her years ago. She hasn't been doing well ever since; her physical condition being far worse than mine. Now, I have to live with all of this every day. She still has her self harm scars and doesn't bother to cover it up, which feels terribly awkward to walk in public with, and everything else piling up in my brain. I feel self-centered