today at my party we fuckign kissed. less than a day after he left her, we kissed. I didn't initiate it, and it felt amazing because even after we broke up i still loved him. I always have, and now i'm overthinking every little move. he was talking to someone(A) on a vc game and i dont know why but it made something inside me feel wrong. he said she was high and made a couple other mentions. we were on a call before he joined, and once he did he went on mute and it's like i wasn't there to him anymore. he didn't even remember we were still on call. and after that, he forgot to mute himself again, and while i couldn't hear what other people were saying, i hear dhim, and he sounded so happy. evetually my internet cut out, and i told him when it came back, and he just encouraged me to go to bed, even though he would be staying up. then, i was overhtinking it more and i asked to clarify about the kiss, and he didnt even open it, and he's still playing games and having fun with A.