i hate myself, im dependent on my parents because they completly took freedom and i missed out on so much, i cant talk to anyone and the last time i did he told the whole group in an argument, but im gonna keep quiet about everything he told me cus im not a ABSOULUTE peice of shit. im tired of my family calling me lazy then making me do everything and using the fact my brother wont do anything as an exuse, i hate always hurting, i hate that i was such a jerk to people cause felt trapped, i hate not being able to do anything but sit in bed searching for quick dopamine hits, i hate that i trapped myself