I hate to complain about this but it’s just been something I have no one to talk about comfortably and it feels like I’m just sinking. I hate being black. I don’t hate my culture or my skin or my hair or my people I love it all but I hate being black. I hate having to feel like a villain when I’m just walking down the street. I hate having to overthink wondering if I’m making someone uncomfortable when I’m just trying to live life like anyone else. I try to be as good as I can be because I like being good and I like making people happy but when I get online and see people saying horrible things it hurts so much. I can’t change it. I can’t fix it. There’s no way out of it. And there’s the extreme side where people die because of racism and that makes me feel horrible but sometimes it’s the little things. I once saw a video using a song where a white girl says the nword as a joke and I complained in a comment. Someone told me “it’s not that serious” I cried for hours.