Ok so this is about my faith as a Christian- I was raised in a Christian household and we have a church we go to but now I’m 15 and I’m really scared I don’t believe. I mean I go to church but at the end of the day I don’t think about god outside of that. My last youth trip I kind of had a revelation that I believed but now I feel like it was kind of a spur of the moment thing and we have another trip coming up. But my anxiety and depression has recently been ruining my life and I feel like my faith isn’t important for me rn? Idk. I don’t read my bible, I don’t pray, I don’t do anything and I feel miserable and guilty. And if I ever decided I really didn’t believe I think my parents and friends would shut me out or never look at me the same..I don’t know if it’s wrong but I feel like I don’t care about God sometimes and I’m scared. I have been drowning in these sins that I should feel guilty of and repent..but at the same time I don’t want to be bound to that..idk I feel sick thinking