im so fucking pessimistic compared to everyone i know. or maybe theyre just naive. maybe theyre dumb for thinking there will ever be a place for us in the world. yeah thats prolly it. im so r-t-rded. i cant read anything right. i cant interpret anything right. i cant talk right. i cant sound right. but i dont sound wrong enough to be relieved of neurotypical standards. i just gotta lock in ig. i cant tell my friends this stuff they probably already know but i just cant idk why i just dont want them to know that im even more stupid than they thought. maybe idk whatever we keep it pushing itll all be worth it kinda even if ill always be oppressed i fucking hate optimism its just a lying cheating bitch "i think trans people will be accepted later in your lifetime" stop trying to get my hopes up it wont happen ill always be fucked and thats FINE ill keep going out of spite and fear for what it would do to my loved ones if i died and monotony ill keep going in monotony fuck your hope