Hey I'm Christan, or follower of God, don't leave yet I just wanna be heard, I tried preaching the gospel to random strangers online, I ended up getting shamed not knowing what to do, I don't know how to deal with loss I'm an introverted kid, I'm so young I grew up introverted I don't know, I feel like I have a rock on my back and a timer about to say my time is up, I don't know what to do, I was so excited to preach I didn't know I was forcing religion or getting shamed, I know it's part of the story with christans but I have no idea, my family is all Lukewarms, different beliefs, I'm on my own, no church no nothing, just me my thoughts and God, I don't know man I feel so disappointed of myself for not helping anyone, my dream is to help and save people from things like depression and stuff, because I used to be dealing with suicide when I was 8 and I'm continuing also 3 years after, I don't know man how do I deal with this I'm so confused and sad, I'm so sorry I can't help anyone