Im so fucking tired of all this shit. At school everyone expects me to get perfect grades and im tired of slaving away to the system to be another nobody who dies without anything eventful in life. My parents will beat my ass if I get so much as a b on something, im so lonely that it physically hurts, I just wish I could sleep and never wake up. I would give anything for connection, for a reason to keep going, but I know there isn't one. There wont be one. Im just a waste of air and always have been. Its taking everything in me to not pick up the knife and relapse. I honestly dont even know why I havent just given up. I dont want to die, but I cant keep living like this. Im not even living, tbh, im just existing. A slave to the system. Another mindless robot just going through the motions of "daily life". Im so fucking done, this life is overwhelming and im ready for the next one