I was honestly thinking about committing at 18 years old. Genuinely, nothing good has been happening for me at all. My family is too stuck up on being Christian to the point they don't care about me anymore. They actually yelled at me for sinning. That sin was pride. I tried keeping it a secret that I was in the LGBTQ+ community. It has been that way for a few years. One of my friends lied to me...they got me in big trouble. My family had told me I was going to hell. Because of that, I have been questioning whether or not I should just go right now. I really don't know how to tell them, but I think I might be a atheist. I don't really know. For the past few years, I have wondered if hell and heaven were actually real. I don't believe in that anymore. I just assumed we all were reborn. I forgot what religion that belief was in. I just hate my life, honestly. I really want it to end right now. I only have a few years left anyways. I can at least try and make it somewhat good.