i feel so depressed, like everything i do is leading up to nothing. i dont find enjoyment in anything. I want to be happy, but its hard to be happy when nothing you do matters. I just wish I can get help but i cant afford therapy and i dont know what to do with myself. i wish we can go back to a world where im not actively trying to be replaced by a stupid bot. I depend on AI too much now too. i cant do most things without it and im starting to hate myself more and more.