The tags here can't explain what pisses me off, because its EVERYTHING. The state of the world, the state of the people around me, my mother asks for half of my disability check which is a reasonable thing to ask for if I saw any fucking benefit to it. All I see is the number going down in my bank account as I struggle with my lack of employment and the bullshit state of society that drains and kills people like me. I do not feel like a human because of how horrendously bad support systems are and how the society that we live in is designed to disable and kill children who think differently, you are a machine or you are nothing. You die in a cubicle or you live like a bum, it's not living, though. The rotting of my flesh while I'm still alive is amplified by the screams of people who go unheard. This is the most tame of my thoughts, I'm sick and I'm tired and I'm sick and I'm tired. As a child my biggest fear was the heat death of the universe and now as an adult all I know is rage.