i tell my family that i wanna kms and that my future is pain and suffering they gasp like they didn't tell me abt how one of them gets SA'd by strangers daily for being a woman (she looks just like older me too), another person complaining about her job as a food vendor and literally hurting herself for it and says its ok and she likes it even tho its apparent that she really doesn't and is only doing it for the money, and the last guy (and although he doesn't say this) I can tell his job wares him out to the point where im pretty sure the only light in his life anymore is the tv screen and fishing since making friends as an adult is impossible outside of school or work (he has a high degree btw). Then they tell me to go outside and what do I see? sketchy dilapidated building everywhere. And dad says ppl move to where I live bc their place is even worse with actual nothing on their side. "theres so much in the world" no??