I’ve thought about running away multiple times. It doesn’t feel like freedom, but it doesn’t feel like it would hurt either. I just don’t feel anything. But how do you live with people that you love but who are also breaking you without knowing it? I wanna come out to them. So. Fucking. Badly. But if I do, my dad will disown me or whatever else he wants to do. I would gladly be disowned. I hate myself sometimes too. I do things that make me feel gross. I masturbate sometimes, I’ve used AI chatbots to “cope”, and god knows what else. I just want a break.
the world1 felt this