I can't even ask for help to solve my suicidal thoughts; I'll just end up in a psych ward and on a document ppl can see, which will affect my parents' chances of getting a new visa. All because this Fucking giverment HATES immigrants like ppl dont understand how shittty my life will get if I have to move again. I hate this. It feels like dying is the only thing that will free me. I wish I could go back to the times I wasn't so guilty; I can't stop hurting myself unless I'm distracted. I'm doing sh every 1,2 days. I hate this. I can't even die bc i know the same thing will happen.I wish I could hire someone just to kill me. I feel like I'm going insane.
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