Every day I wanna kill myself because of racism alone. I actually cannot imagine a day where I am happy simply because racism exists and I know it’s not going away. It doesn’t matter if my mental health gets better or if my money issues are solved or if my family issues suddenly disappear. I will always have to deal with racism and it kills me. The discrimination and generalization of my people as well as other people of color is something I will never ever in my life understand and I will forever be frustrated by. I will forever be forced to live in a world where I’m treated like a villain because some other person of color I have no relation to did something bad one day. But if it’s not a person of color it’s always treated like an isolated event that doesn't matter. I just want to be a human being. I want to walk outside and not fear for my life. I want to walk outside and not sit and worry about if I’m making people uncomfortable by existing. Life feels completely meaningless.