when i feel "depressed" or hurt myself to relieve the feeling, i later just feel extremely guilty for thinking like this given how lucky i am in so many ways. there are girls the same age as me across the world not allowed to speak or learn or be free, there are millions of people dying from starvation, even my own family from my home country have lives that are terrible compared to mine. so what right do i have to feel this way? my problems are miniscule compared to . to be honest, this mindset of thinking has actually helped me a lot, and gets me out of that mood quickly. i want to use the privilege i've been given to make a difference in the world, but i still have selfish fears, like never finding the perfect partner or being alone forever because of how much i block people out. i'm trying to be kinder, more social, a better person, i've only taken tiny steps but i think i can do it.