I want to try harder! but it just wont work Every time I do something, the night before it I procrastinate on it thinking " I will get it done" and "Ill try harder and get better" but when the time comes I can never do it right! I just CANT. then my parents are here always repeating things about how good the other student are and I just cant take it. When I try to explain.... no goddamn person gets me. I don't even get myself! my chest feels really heavy with all of this in my mind. my mind is never clear. I want to DISSAPEAR but I can't I feel horrible. no one sees it but me. I want them to know but I cant let them know I'm scared of them judging me I want to cry but I just dont know how to cry. I try to cry. but no tears ever come anymore